Random Thoughts

I've had a lot on my mind lately with the holidays coming to an end, the new year now here & the fact that I'll be ending my maternity leave & heading back to work in less than two weeks. I've enjoyed my one-on-one time with Reese more than I could have ever imagined. Since I had such a rough postpartum road after Cam was born, I wasn't sure what to expect this time around. I'll never forget this time I've had with her. It's sad I'll never have it again since I work full-time. Sometimes I wonder whose job is harder, a working mom or a stay-at-home mom. Either job has it's ups & downs & can be argued either way; both jobs are hard & have their own challenges. In a perfect world I would work two to three days a week. That would be an ideal balance for me. Hopefully that could be possible in the future but right now it just isn't for many reasons. In the meantime, I'm trying to soak up my baby girl as much as I can before it's time to begin the rat race again. I'm telling myself that worrying about work now is useless & will only take my mind away from the present & enjoying the last of my time off with Reese. Obviously we'll have a million more wonderful moments to come, but it just won't be the same.



Luckily my mother-in-law flies in from Chicago today & finally gets to meet her first granddaughter! She'll be staying for a whole month which is great because I'll be able to ease back into work without needing to take Reese to daycare. She'll be going to the same daycare as Cam, the one he's been in since he was four months old. The first week of daycare is always the hardest since I'll need to get used to the routine & accept the fact that a lot of things will be out of my hands. Sometimes being a control freak can be hard! Just as we've gotten into a great routine, I have to leave to go back to work! Ugh. Such is life.



Leaving this precious angel with someone else isn't an easy thing!