With these two faces in your life each day, you might wonder how you could possibly be in a funk. Well, despite their cuteness, I am in a funk! The past two weeks have been really rough for me. I've been feeling like I'm running & running & the finish line is nowhere in sight. The motto in my head most of the time is, Who has time for that?
It's amazing how being a parent brings so many emotions. In a matter of a few hours I could feel five different emotions ranging from overwhelmed to thankful to tired to annoyed, etc, etc, etc. All in all, I feel like I've been balancing work & being a mom pretty well. Not so much recently. It can be overwhelming since with parenthood there is no end in sight. There's always dishes, always laundry, always bottles to fill & mouths to feed. And yes, this is what I no doubt signed up for when I decided I wanted to be a parent & God blessed me with my two beautifully healthy children. But, that doesn't mean it's always a cake walk. I sometimes think back to times before we had Cam & Reese & think to myself, What did we do all day? The answer, a whole lot of relaxing!
Do I want that previous life? Hell no, I wouldn't trade this life for anything in the entire world. I just need to accept the fact that it's not always going to be easy. I have to stop striving for what I think my life should look like & just be content with what my life actually looks like. It's not always neat, tidy or easy, but it's a great life. Sometimes I just can't get my priorities in line when I have so many things to do so I just end up doing nothing really well. There's so many things I want to do or know in both my personal & professional life but I just can't seem to carve the time out. And I don't know when I'll ever be able to find the time in the near future. So, what it really comes down to is me letting go & realizing that when my two kiddos are grown & I do have all the time in the world, I'll be wishing to have this time back.