With these two faces in your life each day, you might wonder how you could possibly be in a funk. Well, despite their cuteness, I am in a funk! The past two weeks have been really rough for me. I've been feeling like I'm running & running & the finish line is nowhere in sight. The motto in my head most of the time is, Who has time for that?
It's amazing how being a parent brings so many emotions. In a matter of a few hours I could feel five different emotions ranging from overwhelmed to thankful to tired to annoyed, etc, etc, etc. All in all, I feel like I've been balancing work & being a mom pretty well. Not so much recently. It can be overwhelming since with parenthood there is no end in sight. There's always dishes, always laundry, always bottles to fill & mouths to feed. And yes, this is what I no doubt signed up for when I decided I wanted to be a parent & God blessed me with my two beautifully healthy children. But, that doesn't mean it's always a cake walk. I sometimes think back to times before we had Cam & Reese & think to myself, What did we do all day? The answer, a whole lot of relaxing!
Do I want that previous life? Hell no, I wouldn't trade this life for anything in the entire world. I just need to accept the fact that it's not always going to be easy. I have to stop striving for what I think my life should look like & just be content with what my life actually looks like. It's not always neat, tidy or easy, but it's a great life. Sometimes I just can't get my priorities in line when I have so many things to do so I just end up doing nothing really well. There's so many things I want to do or know in both my personal & professional life but I just can't seem to carve the time out. And I don't know when I'll ever be able to find the time in the near future. So, what it really comes down to is me letting go & realizing that when my two kiddos are grown & I do have all the time in the world, I'll be wishing to have this time back.
Dude, being a mom is tough. Don't be too hard on yourself. Take it one day at a time (or one hour at a time).
ReplyDeleteGosh Allison, I don't know anyone who doesn't feel this way lately. Myself included. I too fight the funk. I applaud you for even keeping up with your blogs because I just don't have the time or energy to keep up with mine. It's hard but we really need to savor our 30s and parenthood because in 15 years we'll miss THIS!
ReplyDeleteIt's good to know I'm not alone! Mel, I use my blog as a way to de-stress before bed, that's why I'm pretty good about keeping up with it! Most of the time I am savoring my present but there are times it just feels like too much. Hormones don't help either. F you, PMS!
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